When i was young i used to hurt animals.Around the age of 7.
For example i went over a womens house who had alot of cats. When i was left alone i would picked up one of the kittens and strangled it. Not hard because i was fully aware i was hurting it and if i did too much it would die,i only strangled it till it began to choke. I got a thrill from feeling the muscle around its throat strain under my hands. Another instance is there used to be a man who owned a small dog with floppy ears so i would go over and pull the dogs ear or squeeze and pull it's tail till it cried out. I never seriously hurt these animals, i just for some reason enjoyed causing them temporary pain. I once caught a lizard and flicked its head until it died. I didnt mean to kill it and i felt very badly afterwards.
Now im older and i am very empathetic, I treat evryone around me kindly, People always tell me i have a kind aura, and i have no violent tendencies.I'm basically an all around nice guy and i pride myself on that. So my question is why was i so sadistic as a child but now im completely empathetic. Remember that i was aware fully i was hurting these animals, it wasnt innocent curiosity or playfullness, I was actively enjoying the animals pain.