Some background which I feel may be relevant:
I'm a male in my late 20s. Growing up (and even in early adulthood) I always imagined I'd be someone who would be perceived as great by a large number of people, despite the fact that I have no good reason to think this, it was just a strong belief that came from within. It turned out I didn't ammount to anything (relevant). (This isn't self-deprication, I'm just being realistic).
I've always been that kind of person that would rather do a great job or do nothing at all. Go big or go home.
I remember discovering the word megalomania for the first time in the dictionary and thinking it fitted me.
I wouldn't agree that I'm a megalomaniac according to the psyhcological definition given in wikipedia.
As I grew up I found myself crying over great moments of sucess by other people (or even fictional characters) more and more. Some examples of things I could see myself cry over are:
Maradona's goal of the century;
Saw's ending (particularly the part where Jigsaw rises up to show who's boss);
An example from gaming - Street Fighter (for those people who don't understand what was going on: the male character was really, really close to losing and had a massive, massive come back and won);
I don't think I cried over these examples, but they're just examples. I could have cried, I believe. Also any sort of underdog winning story (like Rocky or David vs Goliath) is a good example.
I should say that I don't feel sad in this situations (I think), I'm happy for whoever lived the moment. I just wish it could be me.
More briefly: any moment of greatness can make me cry.
I don't really cry over other things.
Questions: What would you guess is wrong with me? Why do I cry over this sort of stuff? How can I work on this issue by myself? If there is a technical term to describe this, what is it and what are some good sources to read about it?
Any input you might feel is relevant is also appreciated.