I 've had a few traumas ,I was molested by my older brother ,nothing was ever said until one day when I was 45 my brother in law ask why I hated my brother and I said you want to know I'll tell you. Well my brother called and apologized after almost 30 yrs and blamed to drugs . I felt like a weight was lifted after I blurted out what I felt. Anyway when I was 19. I was raped at knife point they never found the guy I lost my father two yrs later . I dated a few guys nothing worked out until my daughters father we were together for a year I became pregnant at five months lost that baby. Then He ask me to marry him and I never answered. Then a year and a half later I became pregnant with my daughter I was very happy after greaving for so long . Shortly later my mother became ill I worked took care of my daughter and mother my daughters father was drinking and doing drugs and I gave him his choice me and the baby or his life style. Well he chose his life style. My mother past shortly after and I raised my daughter gave her everything and never thought of myself . Well my daughter is all grown up with three daughters of her own and in a messed of relationship . I just wonder if because of me not having a relationship past on . I have gone to several meetings and talked about things but why why haven't I found someone