I used to have to call my mom at work, a hospital, while my dad was screaming in pain. Call ambulances. All i remember is the bad. Once my dad asked my mom when he was going home and she told him he wasn't ever going home. I had to watch my hero waste away in 6 months and i now don't know how to sympathize for anyone. And i was deoressed and syicidal then decided that forgetting about him and his tragic end. It worked for awhile but now im 23 and im hurting more than before. I wasn't old enough to really know him and what he liked or his opinions or storues. Im depressed sad all the time nothing can satisfy me.ive been close to being hospitalized But i just need help, where and who to talk to and if i will ever be physically able to sympathize or just fake it the best i can