please, just the psych analysis. My older brother is about a decade older than me. He is half blood, and in and out of jail all the time. I was more of a straight arrow with plenty of praise from the family to go with it. I would occasionally snort a lortab he would crush up with him. Sometimes I might of had one to share with him. The way it was supposed to go was the person crushing would get the "line" ready for the other. This was routine. One day he invited me to share one with him and after I done the one in front, like usual, he tells me that line wasnt meant for me. He had taken other drugs and crushed them up and put it in the front line, which he knew I would do. He then played it off like it was my fault. I proceeded to blow it from my nose. He's done that twice because im an idiot and keep trusting him. Another time he gave me a perk 10 and told me it was just like lortab just another name. l didn't know at the time it was around 3X stronger. He then begged me to go to the bar to play pool with him. He begged me to have a beer on him, then a shot, and so on and so forth. I never came so close to dying in my life. I took a vyvanse(upper, For fatigue) that I should not have taken anyway because I just found out I have a heart condition. My brother knows this, yet he kept urging me to drink with him and try his mixed drink. Ofcourse I did not give into his suggestions this time. Is it safe to say he wants me to kill myself accidentally?