I fantasize a lot to escape from reality - but I fantasize about my life getting worse not better. I'll dream about having some terrible disease, being tortured, my loved ones dying, etc. Often my fantasy life gets so bad that I'm driven to suicide but I'm not suicidal in real life.
I'm not sure why I do this because I don't really want bad things to happen to me and I don't feel depressed. I'm just wondering if this is a mental health problem?