Hi I'm 17 and some of the time I feel so confident and I can do eny thing and I just end up sleeping around with ramdom people and have Millons of stuff I want to do it i feel like I'm in a race I don't rely sleep that much cuse I'm haveing to much fun and I don't rely like that many people some times I hate them that much I can't even be in the same room and then at other times it doesn't bother me at all and rely want to kill I'm I want the buzz from it but I haven't done it yet cuse I want it to be perfected other times I don't want to get up I slef harm i drink and some times other thinks to but I do this to get away from the evil that is torcharing me I get rely scared and end up just wanting to die I have two sprits that are liveing in me some times there evil and scare the shit out of me and at other times it rely cool and it's like I'm in a movie and I become so powerfull and I can even make pictures come to life but how do I get the darkness away