Do i have depression?
I cant take it anymore everyday feeling unloved and uncared, feeling useless, meaningless, worthless, and the pain can sometimes be unbearable i've cut my fingers. it makes me remember the pain of those feelings that came with it. It makes me know that one day i can take my own life with my own hands. I cant sleep well anymore. I always wake up at midnight and have a hard time of sleeping again. Lately i've been crying a lot and crying myself to sleep also. It's been like this since the august of 2011. At school I'm always smiling with my friends but whenever im home im always alone. no one to talk to, no one to share these feelings with except my friends whom i think only pities me. Yeah ive tried to talk to my family and share stories from what happened in school but they didnt care. i try to make small conversations with them they get angry. It feels like everything is my fault. Everything. I rarely even talk to them because then i know that they wouldnt even notice that im here or not. It hurts so much to feel rejected, unwanted, unloved, and uncared. i hate me for being so stupid so trusting to even think anyone would care and love me. i just dont know how long i cant take it.