I have had a really screwed up life. My family is full of people that hurt me constantly. I am criticized always and I have the lowest self-esteem ever. Each time I get close to anyone I push them away. I tell no one about the agony I'm living through. I don't sleep at night unless I take 12 melatonin and I eat 1 time a day or not at all. I refuse to let anyone know about my past because its really messed up. I'm am anti social and wish to be understood instead of judged. By the way I'm only 14.