This isn't a question about how I should deal with my dreams of suicide. I have studied that many times. I have researched and meditated upon the reasons why people say I shouldn't comitt suicide.
Since I do have it in mind to eventually kill myself, I have a question...... I am 47 years old. I am somewhat, but not real close to my mother. She is 77. My father is no longer alive. I have wanted to wait till both were gone before I did this, but I fear that I might not be able to wait. I feel like she has a right to know, but I know it won't go well if I tell her. But I also realize that it will probably put her on the hook to get help for me and if she is not able to do that, then she may very well feel guilty for the rest of her life.